Personal Excellence and Anger

I was angry because someone pushed me. In anger, I screamed at children because they were being children - romping up and down. In anger, I gave up on my belief that life mattered, that I mattered. Life seemed like a lie, a big farce; I seemed like a lie, a big farce. In that, I lost faith in my intentions and dreams. I became purposeless. I stopped believing in my values, making my life hopeless.

I shouted at the Universe - You are a lie, I don't believe in you. In that utter pain, angst and sorrow, I died. And then, I was born again. I realized I caused someone to push me. It was not my fault, just that I was responsible because it happened to me. I took responsibility of not inspiring reverence for me, by not being reverence. I took responsibility of not living my word of being love. I took responsibility of causing pain to children and for taking away their power to live with joy and purpose. I took responsibility for life and me being a lie, a farce.

In that, I made a new promise to be love, gratitude, reverence, integrity and mastery; irrespective of the chaos inside or outside. Suddenly, childlike trust and faith came back; heart became joyful; mind became peaceful, body became soothed, rested and refreshed. And, life began to work.

Love, Jyoti.